The blessing of time

I am all alone at home. I have lots of free time. I can do whatever I want whether it is good or bad without worrying that people will know about it. I can sleep all day as much as I want. I can watch movies, dramas and etc wihout being interrupted by anyone. The internet speed is just fine. I am healthy so  I'm capable of doing whatever I want.

For me, this is the real struggle. The struggle to do the right things with all the blessings that I have. The struggle to consume my free time, my youth, my strength, my health, and etc to make sure that they will benefit me in the future.

This free time is the chance for me to fix myself to be a better person. Eventhough I have free time, there will never be a pause button in my life. The time keeps ticking away. Every single second in my life will be asked, every single blessing in my life will be asked. (102:8)

For a muslim, free time is a temptation. Yes, it's true. I'm struggling right here, right now. Every single day passed, I asked myself whether I went through it wisely or not. I ask myself everyday, am I  a better person today? (Crying coz I know myself T.T)

It looks like I already have all the blessings, but still there is one more that I really hope that God will grant me, the blessing of time. I hope I won't take this free time for granted. Pray for me. I have lots of things that I dream to achieve. I want to memorize Quran, I want to read lots of good books, I want to seek knowledge and the list goes on.

Ibn Abbas reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, "There are two blessings which many people waste: health and free time"
(Sahih Bukhari)